6 weeks into motherhood

So my sister came in and told me I should write another blog post and I agreed.  I don't think this post will be as long as my last one; it will just be a few thoughts I've had in the last couple weeks.  

Emma will be 6 weeks old in a couple of days and I find myself thinking that there is no way 6 weeks have passed since I had her!  Time seriously goes way too fast when you have a baby.  But I guess that is because you are just so busy taking care of them!  Anyways, I was thinking back to the first couple of weeks post partum and how hard it was for me.  For about 2 weeks, I was dealing with some serious baby blues.  Not to the point of depression, but close.  No one told me that some women take time to bond with their baby after they are born, so I felt guilty that I didn't feel an overwhelming amount of love for this sweet, little stranger right away.  And to be honest I didn't think my hormones were going to be quite as crazy as they were.  I seriously cried like every day for the first week we were home.  It was really hard on me.  With Easter coming up on Sunday, I've been thinking about how much help I needed and still need being a new mother.  I can't even begin to tell you how much help came from prayers and the comforting of the Holy Ghost.  I was afraid of being alone and taking care of a newborn with no help, even though I had help.  6 weeks in and I am a totally different person then I was when I was struggling those first two weeks.  I love being a mom and I have gained so much confidence!  I keep telling myself I'm never alone, the Savior knows how I'm feeling and what I'm going through.  It helps me through whenever Emma is having a hard day or when I miss Aaron.  I love Easter and the fact that it' s a holiday dedicated to the Resurrection of the Savior.  I know that our Heavenly Father loves us enough to never leave us and that if we are worthy we'll never be truly alone.  What sweet news that is, it was such a comfort to me in this life changing event.  I can't wait to teach Emma all about the Savior and all he does for us and I'm sure He plans to have her teach me as well.  :)